Chapter 5: What Uplifts You?

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Sorry I let two months pass by with out posting. It is crazy how fast time goes by & at the same time how Lazy I can be. Well, I do hope to get back on track & continue documenting my "Year of Hope" & although I still feel strong about staying Positive & Hopefull, I did have a moment where I let my old feelings come back. In January, Mike & I were ready to get more "Aggressive" in our treatments both physically & financially & even though we knew it was all in the hopes of getting us a 20% chance at pregnancy we felt really good. I started thinking of ways to decorate the nursery & what weekends we would go to St George & Logan to tell our families. In a way we started planning our future as a 'Family'. Well, to keep this story from going on & on, the treatments we did were not successful. I was, in a sense, Devastated that it didn't work. How could I feel soo good about it & then not have it happen?? How can the Dr's create the Perfect environment for Pregnancy & have it be unsuccessful?? All of these questions were being asked to myself & apart of me was Angry. Angry that we had to even discuss the "Are you ready to try again next month?". Well truth be told i wasn't ready...I was too busy being stuck in my Stubborn ways!! I was talking to my sweet Sister & she told me about a great article in that month's ensign. It discussed trials & ways people have overcome them. That got me to thinking & I decided it would be fun to have all of you share stories, quotes, thoughts, songs, etc. that seem to help lift you up when you are feeling a bit Down. I am in Primary now & although the kids say the sweetest things that tug at your heart strings, I miss the great lessons in RS. I always felt rejuvinated each Sunday. Now I know my focus is different & is more on the kids, I miss the inspiring words Sisters would share so I am using this blog as a chance to hear those things again. Let it all out!!! What is your little "Go to" when you feel not up to the Challenges of the day? Here are a couple that I actually heard recently that I loved... Last month at our Stake Women's Conference we had some Fantastic Speakers. One of those speakers was Bro Wilcox, although I forgot to write down his credentials I beleive he is a teacher at BYU & this guy was Amazing. Every line that came out of his mouth was Awe Inspiring, but I think this one struck me the Hardest..."Saying you can meet God Halfway, is like a Jockey saying "HE" is going to win the race & Forgeting that HE is riding a horse". Isn't that beautiful?? We don't do ANYTHING alone or without the help of our Heavenly Father. He is ALWAYS there!!!! Then just today we had a talk by one of the High Counselman (I can't remember his name but he is my favorite one to listen to), he said something like this (paraphrasing), "Many people Focus on the Trials of Tomorrow & the Failures of Yesterday, when they need to be focusing on being the Best they can be Today!" I really liked that. I know there were times in my life when I was stronger in certain areas than maybe I am today & then I say alot that tomorrow I will start dieting, or tomorrow I will make sure to read my Scriptures or Tomorrow.... (you get the point). When what is important is what I am doing Today :) I hope that you will share with me your thoughts, quotes, stories, etc that always seem to motivate or help you when you need it most.